When I release control I am able to watch myself feel.
My face looked at me in the mirror today.
If you imagined your own reality exactly the way it is, all the time, would you know?
Covid penetrates the blood – brain barrier and attaches to ACE2 receptors located directly at the core of the brain stem, and along the central nervous system. My neck and my back locked up tight. I could not move easily. My bones would jab into my muscles, and scrape against other bones.
Now it is all beginning to unlock again.
Covid penetrates the brain – blood barrier and causes the brain to swell. It’s like being dumb and slow. A cloud of pressure and weirdness fills the head, and houseplants become too swift to keep up with. I have been tasked with learning how to be a line cook. I have decided to use it to my advantage, to whatever extent possible. It has momentarily kept my thoughts limited, both in scope and in multiplicity. But that also means I can focus… kinda. Perhaps it is the perfect cure for a brain such as mine: Covid brain fog induced stupidity. Or, perhaps, I am making no sense RIGHT NOW because of Covid brain fog induced stupidity. Shoe gardens.